Screw Life

Life has been hard for me. Sad. Frustrated. Dull. 
Until one point, surprisingly i found myself a pessimist person
Not something that i hoped for
I used to be an optimist person 
But apparently it fades away, day by day



Yes i know, life is not pink.
Full of challenge, mistakes and failure
Life can be a bitch
It can make i want to cry out loud
CRYING?
heh, dah kering pun air mata


Life didn't turn out to be the way i want
Definitely!
I used to quote "Different people, different way of life & different rezeki. So stop comparing"
But I simply CAN'T stop comparing
It'll wrench my heart seeing other people live the life that I dream of
Saya pernah hilang semangat, oh PUPUS semangat to be exact
What else to do?
I bore the pain with fortitude


Eventually i realized that BEING STRONG IS THE ONLY CHOICE I HAVE RIGHT NOW


Kenapa saya diuji?
"Apakah manusia itu mengira bahwa mereka dibiarkan saja mengatakan,"Kami telah beriman", sedangkan mereka tidak diuji? 
Dan sesungguhnya Kami telah menguji orang-orang yang sebelum mereka, maka sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui orang-orang yg benar dan sesungguhnya Dia mengetahui orang-orang yang dusta."
[Surah Al-Ankabut ayat 2-3]


Kenapa Allah duga saya seberat ini?
"Allah tidak membebani seseorang itu melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya,"
[Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 286]


Kenapa saya tak dapat apa yang saya nak selama ini?
"Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu, Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui."
[Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 216]


Saya teramat kecewa
"Janganlah  kamu bersikap lemah. dan janganlah pula kamu bersedih hati, padahal kamulah orang-orang yang paling tinggi derajatnya, jika kamu orang-orang yang beriman."
[Surah Al-Imran ayat 139]










:::::Al-Quran has all the answers:::::

Last day - Water Village a.k.a Kg Ayer

Wah, it takes 1 month for me to update new entry. hehe. Ok straight to the point. Hari2 terakhir kami di brunei dihabiskan di Kampung Ayer. Its name says it all, the kampung is on the water. But, this village was modernized. So janganla imagine rumah atas air ada sampah penuh bawah rumah, kalau masuk toilet pandang bawah boleh nampak air, "harta karun" pelepup-pelepup jatuh terus dalam air, seterusnya menghasilkan air yang semerbak harummmm. Oh no-no-no! They do have sewerage system ok!

It cost me BND10 for the boat tour around Kg Ayer. Sejam lebih jugakla dalam boat sebab kampung ni sangatla besarrrrrrrrrr. 

Everyone who saw this pic would say "Kenapa jaket celoreng-celoreng?"

Trip ni combine sekali dengan USM group. So ni malaysia group la since from malaysia just UM and USM jer yang attend this conference.huhu. 

typical resident

Jong Batu

Jong Batu is Si Tanggang Brunei's version. Anaknya tak mengaku mak. Mak sumpah anak. Bahtera anak kena panah petih terus transformed jadi batu. Nampak tak batu tu look like kapal terbalik senget sebelah?

Sekolah rendah

They have 11 primary schools & 2 secondary schools. Kalau sekolah sini, jangan harap korang nak ponteng. Mana taknya, kalau dah datang naik boat, then kalau nak ponteng nak lari celah mana? lompat laut?

Another school

Fire station

Mosque

petrol station nun jauh di hujung dunia

Istana Lama 

Pelik kan istana lama ni? Macam scary jer. 

Police station

Yang ni style kedai makan diorang. DI SINI ADA BERJUAL NASI AYAM. tu nampak ada 4 ekor ayam dia letak depan kedai. huhuhuu. 

siap ada jejantas lagi

Besaq punyaaa piring satelit

Each house at least has 1 boat

Finally we went to boat owner's house. Rasa-rasanya beliau lah yang paling kaya kat Kg Ayer ni. Mari lihat rumah beliau

Silap langkah ada jugak yang berendam dalam air

Macam bukan rumah atas air kan?

Living room

Ruang santai

Heh! Amacam rumah beliau? Kalah rumah atas darat.hikhik! Dari luar nampak kecik. Masuk dalam, mak aihhh besaqnyaa. Then kat rumah tu kitorang di jamu minum+kuih-muih. 

We had NASI KATOK for lunch before off to airport. Tak tau nak shopping apa. Memang takde apa yang best yang nak di shopping.huahua. Nasi ni dorang cakap famous la kat sana. Sangat murah ok! (jangan convert!). Only BND 1 = RM 2.5. 

Nasi katok beef

Planning nak merasa ambuyat, tapi tengok harga, perghhhh mengalahkan makan kat secret recipe. terus tak jadi. 

On the plane, i had this..............

ROAST CHICKEN!

Sedapnyaaaaaa menjilat jari! Nyummm nyummm. while the other had lasagne & nasi beriyani. Also tantalizing! Ermmm but our boss' choice was..........................pancake........... ^_^

Toodles Brunei~ 

(i'll come back only if i get married with pangeran brunei..ngeh ngeh ngeh!!!!!)

Brunei - part 2

 Our day 3 in brunei. Ohohoii nervous weh nervous. Sebab? My turn for oral presentation. T___T

Dayang-dayang NeuroRG

me-never-like-presentation!

Whatever it is, i can't deny that it was such a good experience for me... or 1 of the most embarrassing moments in life? haha! well, u choose it! 

The Core

This conference was held at The Core - new residential college. It's architecture was unique. Tambah swimming pool dah macam resort dah. Tapikan, dalam UBD takde shuttle bus.So nak lari kejap jangan harap..huhu..Rakyat mereka kaya raya so student ada sebijik kereta. . eh forgot to mention, for those yang tak tahu, kat brunei ni NO motorcycle ok! so takde aksi2 mat rempit or motor mencelah2. nice kan kan kan???

Then Prof Haji (our ex-dean, current dean of fac science UBD) sangatlah bermurah hati bawak kitorang sighseeing around BSB. Dean ok dean. Segan ler pulok.  Errr lagipun sebab our Boss ni ex-colleague beliau merangkap saudara tiada talian darah, that's why la. hehehe...

1st destination:

Jame' Asr Hassanil Bolkiah.

Look nicer at night

Kat masjid ni kan, ada precious moments that i'm gonna keep it in my mind for the rest of my life.hehehe! can't tell. it's a secret. yang terlibat jer tau. =p

suka pulak gambar ni

2nd destination:

Masjid Omar Ali Saifuddien

The moment i saw this mosque, i felt so calm. Subhanallah!

Please don't laugh at me if i say "ala-ala Taj Mahal"

It's sooo touching when Prof Haji was so kind-hearted by bringing us to have dinner buffet at luxurious restaurant. *sobsob*terimakasihprof*sobsob*gumbiranyahati*sobsob*mahaltu!!*. Dahla beliau sambung buat keje sambil kitorang melantak. ouchhh terharuuu lagi sekali. Disebabkan beliau bayar mahal, rasa bersalah pulak kalau tak makan sepenuh hati. tsk tsk tsk...

udang dia Ya Allah segar-bugar-crunchy2 sedap ya amat lah! (sounds exaggerate but i'm telling u the truth!). Putu piring tu freshly made and debab2. Dah lama tak makan. 

There he is - Prof Haji & Dr Yati from UBD also

Alhamdulillah, murah rezeki kitorang sepanjang kat brunei. We didn't spend too much on food. 

See that bayang2 3 makhluk Tuhan?hehe.. oh ye, yang banyak lampu2 tu, tu Kampung Ayer. Will story-mory about that in the next entry! 

To be continued...

B.S.B bukan BackStreet Boys

Yer bukan Backstreet boys tapi Bandar Seri Begawan! Oh backstreet boys tu my favourite masa darjah 6 okeh! Finally i've got the chance untuk jejak kaki ke brunei. Not a vacation but to attend Women in World Neuroscience Conference at Universiti Brunei Darussalam. At first we thought it just for WOMEN! no men are allowed. so must be a bit bored. can't pandang-pandang jeling-jeling. ekekeke!! tapi nan hadonye. ada jugak men. tapiiiiii, none of them yang in category boleh 'pandang2 jeling2'...wakaka!! cehhhh apa aku merepek ni.

Car advertisement. Gedebuk sebijik kereta letak situ. Tak kena curi pulak eh?

1st day, we just hanging around at The Mall, Gadong. shopping mall paling gah dan vass di brunei. tapi mid valley kita 10x better. hikhik! Nothing special la, biasa2 je. Tapi, food court dia best! Sebab banyak variety desserts and drinks. especially aku yang sangat suka ice-blended ni kan. Foods kat sana a bit murah. tapi jangan convert la weh. First time in our life, stranded in the mall for 3 hours and got nothing to do!hahaha!! So u can imagine how bored that place is. Kenapa stranded 3 hours? Sebab nak balik hotel kena tunggu driver. it's a longgg story why his driver had to pick us up. i malas nak cerita. =p

Nasi ayam nestum...sedap giler wehh!!
The best 'not-established-brand' mocha ice blended i've ever tasted!

FYI, in brunei, everyone has their own car. So public transport memang tak glamour. Bus ride just for indonesian, filipino, bangladesh dan sewaktu dengannya. Mula-mula kitorang nyaris2 nak naik bas! hahaaha!

The most left is our supervisor. That woman in white is neurosurgeon from Japan.

I'm so proud of this neurosurgeon. Sampai brunei pagi, bagi talk, petang balik japan, tomorrow morning ada surgery. Fuyyooo tak penat ke??? There's one quote by her that i remember the most - LOVE YOUR DESTINY!

Then we had conference dinner at Royal Brunei Polo & Riding Club, Jerudong Park. Fully-sponsored by the organizer. Interior design- cantik!!

With Dean of  Institute of Graduate Studies from Philippine. 

The best performance of the night:

They are sooo cute! and very good in hullahup-ing. ada la dalam 5 minutes dancing+hullahup-ing. tak jatuh2. terrar betul! kalau aku seminit pun tak sampai..ngeh3!!!

Brunei people were so sporting! Slumber je staff+students+lecturer+dean nak karaoke. Tapi memang tak tahan masa our supervisor Dr DSHA 'dipaksa' memilih lagu dan karaoke..huahuahua!!! penat gelak! tapi beliau refuse la. hehehe!! for those yang kenal beliau je will feel this kinda situation is hillarious. =p

Ok this is the end for day 1 & 2. To be continued...... 

HELLO THERE~

Heeellllllooooooooooooooooooooo!!!  

Wah ada lagi ke yang sudi menebeng di blog sayerr ni?? Lama sudah ku menyepi. Rinduuuunya nak blogging semula. Tiada reason lain kenapa belog ni tak ber'update - M.A.L.A.S!! hahaha...

Anyway, since i've gotten the "bahan mentah", i'll update soon (not sure how soon is soon =p). Nevermind la kalau takde orang nak baca pun, syok sendiri pun takpe. Tak salah pun. huahuahua!! Okla budak malas ni nak tengok drama. Taadaaa~~

Ceritera Dah Basi

Did u read the title? I told u that this is a stale story. Just read if u want to or just leaveeeee. Mak tak kisah~~~~~

Ok i nak cerita kisah Ramadhonnnn yang lepas ye. Disebabkan aku ngengada  cuti awal, so tak sempat nak update blog ni. Al-kisahnya begini, our annual activity during ramadhon pada tahun ini iaitu "SHOPPING BAJU RAYA DI THE TAR a.k.a JALAN TAR" terpaksa diawalkan ke 1st weekend  puasa. Sebab 2nd week ramadhon aku dah nak blah balik Teratak Kuning terchenta. So as usual Nadiah secara rela paksa kena teman aku. Cik Atiq pun join 2 kaki. Parking kete kat maju junction. Sampai awal so usha2 baju kat situ. Giler cantekkkkkkkkk baju2 kat situ. Tapi dah memang tiap-tiap tahun pasang niat nak shopping kat jln TAR, so kita cuci mata jerrr sambil bermonolog dalaman "takper2 kat jln TAR lagi banyak choice nanti". Sungguh konpiden!

These were our menu for iftar

At Dapur Penyet

Mine was ayam penyet. Penyet celah mana ntahhhh! Macam ayam goreng biasa jer aku rasa. Tapi sambal dia meletops uolls!! Sedap + pedas giler! Konpem nak lagi tapi malangnya tak disediakan free-refill for sambal. Sekian. 

Choices of baju raya kat jln TAR, i tell u haaaaa....very HAMPEHDOTCOM! Ya ampun awatla tak best langsung this year? penat wohhh meredah lautan manusia tapi tak jumpa pun idaman kalbu. Kan dah rugi tinggal teraweh berjemaah tsk tsk tsk... Tapi aku pilih jerla yang agak2 berkenan. Compared to last year too many choices sampai tertamak jap. ngeh3!! Maybe sebab awal puasa lagi so dorang tak keluarkan semua stok lagi. KOT laa kan. Ok dugaan bukan setakat disitu sahaja, esoknya belek2 baju, DAMNNNN! Please refer to the pictures below:

apa kejadahnya ada conteng pen???

wahhh ada lobangg laaaa!!!

Sungguh whatthefish! Then once again nadiah secara rela paksa teman aku gi exchange baju. huahuahua! Camno nak buek, baju den sadis sangat nih. 

Sekian sudah kisah baju raya.

Cuti lama-lama apa gunanya tak buat kuih raya kan. Dah bertahun aku tak buat kuih raya. So tahun ni asah jemari semula. I made the easiest cookies in the world - Cornflakes coklat! ngehngeh!

Then i made biskut aiskrim

ni 1st batch. looked unprofessional..kih3!

2 jenis ni yang 100% my handmade. Yang kuih mak aku buat lupa nak tangkap gambar. hikhikhik!!

This biskut aiskrim is my nephew's (Syahmi) favourite. Bukak puasa & sahur sungguh2 makan biskut ni. He's only 6 but still fasting ok. So shame on u for those tua bangka tapi tak puasa. ish3. His compliment yang paling tak bley blah "taste like the real icecream". Hehehehe!!! Kembang kempis woh. But yeahhh i know he actually likes the shape of icecream. 

Oh tidak meriah rasanya kalau takde bunga api & fireworks kan.

hambek kau!!!

But bunga api nowadays are not as good as before. The quality was sooo bad! Sparkling pun hampeh jer. Api yang lebih.

See my house? That's why it is called Teratak Kuning!

9 Ramadhan

Alhamdulillah hari ni dah 9 Ramadhan. Sekejap je dah seminggu berpuasa. Awal2 Ramadhan ni aku dah ada dugaan tp maybe takla dugaan besar. But for me, benda kecil pun bahaya jugak sebab simpan lama2 jadi besar. Nak2 hati aku ni sometimes boleh jadi over sensetap. hurmmmm tapi malassss nak cerita. Solution? Senyum dan istighfar banyak2. hehehe..  Tapi ada 1 cerita aku nak citer pasal dugaan aku di bulan pose ni. Tapi tu tunggu next entry sebab pic tak upload lagi..heee~